ABOUT ME

I started to look back on the past year and what it’s been like. Honestly, it’s been pretty rubbish, I'm sure that a lot of people will feel the same. 

For me personally, what with Covid, starting a new job remotely, missing my family and friends, having a heap of crap happen at work, moving back in with my parents, and a week later having to have my dog put down. It all got too much. 

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The worst by far for me was losing Daisy (my dog). She was 14, almost 15. However, I never realised just how much I relied on her, the love I have for her along with the amount of happiness she gave me. 

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I have never felt grief like it, I can now say that it’s the lowest I've ever felt. I went to a really dark place, and I'm surprised that I managed to get out of it. Yet I still have days now where I struggle and I don’t really feel up to doing much. Even as I'm writing this, tears are strolling down my face. I had been having Therapy for 5 months at this point, which yes may have helped me, but at the time I remember lying in bed with a massive hole in my chest and not wanting to go on. 

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I feel so grateful for my sister and how much she helped me during such a difficult time. If it wasn't for her, I know would have felt 100 times worse, which is a scary thought. As much as I could have asked her to stay with me, she has her own family to look after, at a time when you weren't able to see other people I felt very isolated and the loneliest I’ve ever felt.  

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I now had all the love I used to give Daisy spare, I had no clue what to do with it and I had just lost my identity as what I can only imagine feels like to be a mum. I’ve slowly started putting that love back into myself and trying to take care of my own health, with some days being easier than others. Yet I still feel a part of me could give my love to something bigger and that helps other people. 

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So it got me thinking and this is where Lone Sole was born. I’m no expert on Therapy or Mental Health but I do have life experience and I’m willing to put myself out on a limb and try to achieve something greater than my 9-5 job. It’s a bit scary I’m not going to lie, but I have to start somewhere. 

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So that’s just a snippet of who I am. There's plenty more to me, and I can pretty much talk about anything and more importantly, I can listen.

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I hope you feel comfortable reaching out and contacting me and hopefully joining me at one of the events.